Here's where we begin. I was an athlete in high school. Played basketball and volleyball. Outside of those sports I didn't work out. I didn't need to, I was in high school and had great metabolism. We would always stop for meals after games and it was always fast food. We ate healthy at home but I didn't really know what it meant. I did find that in the summers I would gain weight, but it never bothered me. I always weighed more than I expected but never weighed myself. The only time I ever remember getting on a scale in high school I was 150lbs and I was a size 6. So I know I will never weigh below that and thats ok with me.
So then college happened. I stopped playing sports and didn't change my eating habits. So you know what that means. The freshman 15, which in my case was probably more. Still never weighed myself so I really know how much that was.
Thus began my life for the years to come. I slowly gained until I graduated from college and hated my body. I started running, a little at a time and started eating a bit better but mostly just eating less. I was living on my own for the first time and was pretty busy. I look back and pretty much didn't have a lot of time to eat so I was eating cereal for dinner a lot and I think that added in to it a lot! I joined a gym that I used mostly for running. Again, don't know the weight loss amount but felt better. I went from a tight size 14 to a size 10. I used running to stay in shape for a while but I still didn't change my eating habits much. Didn't really have to because running kept it off.
Fast forward to 2003. I decided I was tired of the fluctuating weight. I started the atkins diet but no exercise. I lost quite a bit and was the skinniest I felt for a long time. I was back to a size 8-10 and really felt great! I was able to keep that off for over a year and in 2004 I got married. Slowly over the next year I gained it back. Ran here and there but nothing consistent! I got pregnant in November of 2005 and that was the first time since high school I knew my weight. At 9 weeks pregnant I was 204lbs. Yikes!! Did not like that at all! But at that point I couldn't really do much about it then, but I started walking throughout the pregnancy.
After I had my son I tried in vain to lose the weight, but I wasn't really that motivated. I was a tired new mommy and didn't have the energy. (gee I wonder why) I had my second child in 2009 and after that was TIRED of the weight! When I had my daughter I was an embarrassing 264lbs. Awful!
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| this picture almost single handedly made me start losing |
So I started using wii fit! Ha ha as if it was really doing anything. I also started logging my calories on spark people. I started drop weight slowly, very slowly. In the spring of 2010 I started running and signed up for my first 5k in April! I started to love running and signed up for a half marathon in September of 2010. Wow! That was hard! But I did it and it made me feel amazing!
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| Half marathon September 2010 |
I got down to 222lbs where I sat for a few months never going anywhere despite running consistently. So I enlisted the help of a new friend. I didn't know her very well but knew she was on the same type of journey and I needed help. I started emailing her everything I ate and this got me down to 204.
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| The first picture in many many years I didn't hate of myself |
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| 5k in April of 2011 about 9 weeks with the twins |
I was well on my way. Was feeling great and was exciting to keep going! Then, an unexpected pregnancy cut off my plans. I was excited anyway. We were going to try for more but not for a few months. The most unexpected part of this pregnancy! Twins!! Woah, but I was determined for it to be a healthier pregnancy and never get bigger than I was before. I did better I ran unitl I was 16 weeks and I "only" got up to 254lbs (with two babies)! They were born in Novebmer of 2011 and I lost 25lbs right away and started running again at 6 weeks 1 day.
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| Look at the size of that belly! I think I was 36 weeks in this picture. |
That, my friends, was two years ago. I have only lost 10lbs since then. Sigh. I have been doing all the same things I had done before and nothing has worked. I joined the YMCA in January of 2012 thanks to a gift from a very generous donor and have lost some inches but literally nothing is working. This makes my very sad and very frustrated. So here we are. My plan is to started eating clean. This means lots of different things for lots of different people. But for me it means nothing processed as much as possible. I will be tracking my calories on Spark People again and will continue to workout. I will not give up! I will lose this weight and be healthy! I have four beautiful children around to take care of!
Todays weight. 220lbs (oh how I hate this number!)
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| At "Storm the beach" with two of my sisters in June of 2013 |
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